Things I Know for Sure

This post may not be for those who are in a difficult place right now. Please read at your own risk. XO

Life is full of uncertainties, unknowns, questions without answers, and doubts. But there are a few things I know for sure:

1. Everything is made better with chocolate on it or beside it.

2. I am happiest when I am eating or traveling.

3. One of the most beautiful sunsets I have ever seen was at my in-laws’ on Thanksgiving Day:

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4. There will always be someone better off than me, and always someone who is suffering more.

5. I am never too old to enjoy playing with my daughter’s princess castle and pretending to be Cinderella.

6. A few kind words go a long way.

7. My sister and I are very different, but she is the only sister I have, and I am grateful she is mine.

8. It is better to ask about someone’s loss and grief, and risk saying the wrong thing, than to ignore it and let them believe you don’t care at all.

9. “The Wheels on the Bus” has endless verse possibilities…and yet, every one of them gets old very fast.

10. The best day of my life was the day I first held Cupcake in my arms, and the worst day was the day I learned Teddy Graham was gone.

11. It is never too late to say “I’m sorry.”

12. The best thing I ever ate (or drank?) was a toasted marshmallow milkshake at Strand in New York City.

13. Life is full of surprises, some of them horribly horrible and many others wonderfully wonderful.

14. You often get what you want the most when you least expect it.

15. Miracles can happen.

16. I don’t want to cause more damage or brokenness to any of you, my friends and followers, you who have lifted me up, who have handed me peace on a silver platter, who have hugged me across the miles, who have taken the loneliness out of my infertility, who have offered support, advice, and love. I know, truly, I just want all of you to be okay.

17. My husband’s semen analysis was either wrong…OR sperm morphology just really doesn’t matter much.

18. Clomid is still my best friend.

19. I have  $400 worth of injectables stuffed into my fridge that hopefully I will never have to use.

20. I am scared. Scared witless or scared sh*tless, take your pick.

And finally, I know for sure that…

21. In one instant, everything can change….hope and fear can combine and combust…my future can be laid out for me in a million wondrous and awful ways and the only thing I can do is wait to see which way it will go…all because of one little test taken yesterday morning that has made it perfectly clear why my period never came :

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37 thoughts on “Things I Know for Sure

  1. Ahhh! Just started crying on my way to work! How exciting! I’m so shocked and excited for you. Hope that everything continues to go well.

  2. Wonderful!!!! I’m so happy for you!! I admit that the thought crossed my mind – why on earth wasn’t your period showing? – but I didn’t want to say a thing. I am so happy that it worked out this way!

    Amazing!

  3. Oh goodness! I was secretly wondering if thats why nothing was happening and am so delighted to hear your news! Congrats! Praying for a sticky baby!

  4. OMG!! I was reading through your post and wondering why you had the disclaimer because I thought the post was so incredibly lovely. I can’t even express to you how happy I am for you. I am so incredibly excited!!! You deserve this so much. I am not the most religious person in the world, but I will be praying for you and this baby. Congrats again. xoxo 🙂

  5. Well, scratch my comment on toasted marshmallow milkshakes … all that’s left to say is congratulations! Congratulations! And one more time … congratulations! I too wondered if you might possibly be pregnant, given your period’s unwillingness to arrive, but didn’t say anything because really, is there anything more annoying than that kind of question? But I’m so glad my suspicions weren’t for naught. Let the adventures begin!

  6. I did a little happy dance and might have even squealed when I read this! I’m so very happy for you! As others have said, I kept having this nagging suspicion that something was up. I’m SO glad your period never came because this is a million times greater. Yay! *hugs*

  7. I was totally expecting this post. Ever since you mentioned that it had been 2 weeks since provera and had an elevated temp, I knew. I didn’t want to say anything though because I didn’t want to upset you or jinx it. Congratulations my dear, I wish you the best.

  8. Yay! When I read your last couple of posts about not getting a withdrawal bleed after stopping the Provera, I actually thought, “Maybe she’s pregnant….” That second line is nice and dark too. So happy for you!

  9. Um, how have you not tested until now?! I assumed you had done that long ago. Anyway, congrats! That is seriously awesome news! Don’t worry about causing other people pain. You only give us hope! Fingers firmly crossed for a smooth 8-9 month journey.

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