Merry Christmas — Even if it’s Not Totally PC to Say That

Just a little post to wish all of you a Merry Christmas.

I know the whole holiday season can be so hard, and the very pinnacle of pain is probably reached on Christmas Day itself. The holidays are different since having a child, but even now, I am finding this one a little hard to get through. It feels like someone is missing, our home feels empty, and I don’t know that things will be any different by this time next year.

And yet, I know — I know — that this season is much more difficult if you are still trying to bring home your first baby. Honey and I first started trying to build a family just before Christmas 2008. By Christmas 2009, with still no baby in sight and several rounds of failed Clomid cycles already under my belt, I was feeling lost, defeated, and desperate. I felt hopeless. There was a deep ache in my heart the whole month of December and as I looked towards the New Year. Please know that I remember what that is like. I remember.

Today and tomorrow, I hold you all close to my heart as we go through this day together. May you find some peace and comfort in knowing you are not alone, you are thought of fondly, and you are loved.

And now, something to make you smile (I hope)…


And here, my Christmas wish for all of us…

Have yourself a merry little Christmas.

Let your heart be light.

From now on,

our troubles will be out of sight.


7 thoughts on “Merry Christmas — Even if it’s Not Totally PC to Say That

  1. Merry Christmas to you (and I’m not Christian, and I still say it!). Even though I wish none of us knew what it was like to spend a Christmas wondering if we’ll ever be parents or if we’ll be able to have another child, I truly appreciate hearing that you remember. I have a friend who seems to have forgotten what all of that was like now that she’s pregnant and I find it hurts me. So knowing that someone out there remembers and acknowledges it comforts me. Even though I think I’m getting my period as we speak, I am excited for Christmas this year and I’m hoping that 2013 is a fertile year for all!

  2. Merry Christmas! If no baby by next Christmas, let’s hope there will be some on the way. For all of us! I hope you found some joy today with honey and cupcake.

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